wake up from dream 3

I am bleeding to hell.

I have been injured by the peoples whom i have helped.

They have stabbed me like Brutus.

That is the reason i am closing down.

This worlds does not like the pious ones.

wake up from dream2

There is a little story. But from where i read or heard it just not able to recall, may be i have written it.

Okey, story line is something like this
"
There were three states. A big-state another small state and in between this two there was another very very small tiny-state. This tiny-state was dependent on big state and friendly towards small-state. Now, how to live peacefully ? It started telling big-state that small-state is your enemy and created war like situation between them . Now this two big neighbours are enemy and tiny-state is benefiting from both state.
"
This is the way of life.
I don't know the solution but i have seen it in society, friendships, nations etc.
It is an ancient problem but solution may tried is neutralize that tiny-state who is creating the problems.

Wake up from dream.

In the past few days i have experienced and experimented with few things and observed. I came to the conclusions that people are very nasty as individual. If, given something they would demand more. There is a viscous cycle going on for the fulfillment of the vices and desires more and more.

People are unsatisfied. If they have comfortable wealth despite this they want more and more. They reaches a stage and believe that it was their right or they did it on their own and deserved it. Then they start behaving differently/ abnormally.

From this arrogance/ negativity starts. From this harming to nearby persons start. They start damaging their work place, their neighbours, cast / group peoples etc etc.

This is an individual problem and every person have it to some extant. A bad wolf starts the game. So, people asks for protections or try to pass it on. But, passing it on does not work.

What is proper thing is to control the self. Try to heal our mind, try to enhance our qualifications, money or fame is not a parameter in life for success. Money is needed for sustaining the lifestyle & capability to buy foods stuff, medicine etc. Food is needed for sustaining (biomass) our body.

This is a very vicious circle. How to break it. Break it with thought. Start feeling good for being in this world.

Eat , make marry, go out and do something worthwhile which may or may not give you fame. i.e. Make computer programes. Develope computer games , make archive of something which is being lost. Like a heritage monuments. Deocumenting the (real) games which are fast vanishing. This will help the community as a whole. Your energy will be utilized for the society and one day you will not regret doing nice work.

If, you are making poison, after some time it is going to be hurt you. Being in golden dome or artificial island is not going to protect long as humans life time is a finite and other things life is long comparatively. But one day that will be also exhausted golden done will be razed and blazed. Artificial island will be filled with mud. That is what life does with poison producing systems.

Till then buy,

I will be closing down lost of things this year and will announce it on 31 December 2010

6th December

On this 06th december three things happened day when the structure fall, this is day for remembrance of Dr.Ambedkar and last but not least i also fall.

I am out, let me see whether chhinmasta arising or not.

I don't think there will be more posts as i will be not able to tell the truth. may be pople don't want the truth, maay be my truth is so much pure that it becomes poison. Why should i tell the truth. Let the truth tell itself. So, lady truth now you are lonely. Find some suitable batchelor your self.

What happened ? Someone, broke my lively hood. I know him. The face and energy behind that face, the manipulator of that energy.

There are actors in all this breaking drama, individually their are innocent but collectively, egoistically they ruined other peoples life and they are still not aware of it.

Don't worry lady truth you will also find a suitable bachelor, i have become old. all this years i have entertained you, made you happy, prosporous, danced with you but i have tired and become old. So, go away and don't come in my view.

Acceptance of failue ?

I was thinking, whether people should accept the failure or not. Tell me what is success and what is failure ?

You are not free to stand with truth. You are not free to speak the truth. And you are not free to accept the truth. You are bound by ego (of yours and others) .You do all your best to ensure that your goal is satisfied. But, are you alone ?

You are above me but there is someone higher on us also. And i know them. They are kind and just. If, they don't care then there is no way. What is my need for acceptance of failure ! we all are a failure in a way or two.

So,I promised that i will not accept failure even if i am a failure. I will hold the flag high upto my last moment.

A little present

Hanuman

Little thinking on eve of 6th december. I remember years ago we were remebering this day for Dr. Ambedkar and their people doing prayers and other activity. Now, there is enforced vigil due to a demolition.

On some years back on 06th December a structure collapsed. We are making it a big national issue. Let us ask our selves "Is this ho halla worth it? Disturbing normal way of life."

There is no issue. Let us think like this.

We native (now called hindus ) have inhabited the country from time immemorial. Our memory is very vivid of an epic that took place in i.e. Ramayana. The ramayana is not godly or god it self or said by god but depicts tale of the god in the human forms i.e. Lord Rama. Why Lord Rama ? because we beleive in them. Like you beleive in your gods.

From time to time sages spoken ramayana in many forms. But, we beleive that birth place of lord Rama is ayodhya. No body calls another things contrary. In this whole place called ayodhya there is only one place we are identifying.

We should not forget that there was a time when temples were looted i.e. Somnath for money. During this time, someone from this raiding party chose to live and rule. Instead of choosing local faith they preached their own faith. Due to their intolerance we see lots of temple broken and erection of other things.

Now, be tolerative. There is no kings be it hindu, muslims or others. We are free people. Forget and forgive the old rulers.

This is our nation. We have earned and inherited it from our past with lot of problems. But we have made it a wondeful nation in a short time. We native (hindus & others) are the
original peoples and some minority group has also origin here. They can't claim they are not part of our nation. They chose to live here and be with us. They chose not to go pak. We have seen lot of partitions now there is no scope of it. They are part of our nation and should not do anything that harms progress of our nation.

Let there be temple in Honour of Lord Rama. Ultimately Lord Rama is our king, of all natives be they of any faith, religion, state. Beware there is Hanuman.

Good Morning

wirk not done

I very dear friend of mine said my work is not being done. I am also in the same boat. My work is also not being done but the people for who i am praying gets benefits. I get negative results and loss. Peoples rotten works are being done but my genuine work is hampered. I am doing regular upasana ! What is problem with me.

• I asked him one thing. Are you charging any money for helping peoples ? reply was No.
• Are they your family ? Reply was NO.
• Are they your guruji's shishya ? NO
• Do you love them ? NO.

When there is no relations ship why do work ? Here is the point.
I faced the same problem.
My solution was simple.

If your are doing something then first of all get the money from him/her/them and distribute to temples, beggars , poors for batuk-bhojan, langar etc. But don't use for person use and don't touch the money. Be with them and orbserve they are doing langar to poor peoples.

If they get result it will be due to their benevolent etc nothing will be deducted from your spiritual account.
If they don't get any result they will stop bothering you and you may be spared from trouble.

Lakulish

Who are the lakulish ? They carry the shiv. They are the caravan of shiv. From place to place, from age to age they are the carriers. They have build the physical 'shiv' for our worship. But, they are not pujari, brahmins, deities etc.

They just love the shiv. Whatever the hardship to them. Whatever the failure or success to themselves. They just says one things. Shiv ka shasan hai, shiv ka shasan hai. Cariers are so much committed that they don't see who is inside their vehicles. How beautiful or ugly. They just carry out the journey as desired.

They are silent ones. May be one day i will see them. Be with them.

evil things.

Salute to ravana. He is the shiv-bhakta and had knowledge of lots of things. One thing always tingling in my mind why he has to killed by Lord Rama ?

This reply never come. But i see lots of people are using the powers of deities. They are doing pujan's etc. They even know little things like muth, calling evil spirit, karnapisachini, bhut vidhya etc. But, when the topic of spiritual healing comes they don't know it. Of course their practice harasses other persons.

So, in the spiritual world it does make a difference of so called white and black is the intention of the person and use of the spiritual power for constructive works. Not to just his own clan/religions but to the universe as a whole.

If, your outlook is not bramhandiye, not loving mother nature then you are not in the white magic. Whatever you are doing is the black one even if you are not using ghots. King Veer Vikram even used betal but his works was constructive and just. So, we remember him as vir vikram. Think over it. Throw your ego in the dust bin, return your religon to their mulla-pandit-etc or whoever, erase inherited beleife. Just love thy GIA.(mother nature).

Then she will accept you as you are and you will not regret your life. Otherwise in the end hell which you have created in your life is waiting for you.

Suxma Yoni

There is something weird about the place Jabalpur(M.P.) which is on the bed of river Narmada. I have seen lot of people infected by so called spirit, ghost and "mind's vikruti-generated by other peoples".

Here, people are having a Mask of goodness. They are looking very normal. Here people do pray in a special way during all Navratri. Jwara is done. All sort of penance is done. It is celebrated. So, spiritual earning is high.

But, they spend this earning into harming other persons. They pass on the infection instead of healing it. Actually they should kill the infection.Someone has started this infection. WE Should neutralize that person so s/he does not generate it again.

wish

Since few months sensitivity for un-cleanliness has increased.

When mass public is gathered there is strong feeling like being in the mud-pool. This pool consists of peoples evil deeds, master plans, their thoughts to gain, un healthy habits etc. I dislike the meat eating peoples dirty touch.So, basically i have no where to go.

When i enter the temple and if they are doing the works for money they clearly hate my visit. May be my presence is reminding that they are doing wrong !

Feel like out-cast. I have no where to go. Now a days i am not doing any puja still there is constant need for cleanliness. may be this is due to dhyan & kundalini jagaran yog ?

If you are doing kundalini dhyan beware you will need clean environment to sustain or other wise will cry like me.

dipawali

Today is dipawali. Day before was 14th of black moon. Today is dark-moon. Day before we have done all sort of black magic and our make beleive things. I don't subsribe to it. I believe in the goodness of god.

when i compare myself with others who are doing prayers i call myself failures. But when i close my eyes, remember the god or open my eyes i see the beauty. I see the good ness of people. I am not optimistics but still see the good ness around me and say to my lord. I know you. And lord smiles to me like saying i love you my boy.

But when i measure my benefit of making friendship with the lord it is not visible to me except true and un-conditional love.

Even from small darshan, words peoples have made temples but mylord does not allow me to pray there or visit them. My lord krishana said to arjun whatever others do i am with you. So, lord i beleive you.

Your touch is my proof. Your smell is my confidence. I know nothing of magic but my dear lord i know i love you. O my great lord be my girl-friend like you have become arjun's chariotman.

Before i leave this body lets sleep togather. Be my girl-friend before i become your girl. I could not wait for more. Speed up or if you will come late- find myself as your girl. I love you.

miracle2

I have to say only one thing the lord shiv is ultimate.
Shiv is our guru.
Shiv is our palan-karta.
We decline all the miracles and make beleive.
shiv-shashanat
shiv ka shashan hai shiv ka shashan hai.
OM

miracle

Today i was reading local news papers. One thing caught my eye. A islant countries ex-prime minister's sister-in-law converted her religion. For NEWS item the importance is the PM not the SIL or conversion.

For seeing something supernatural and accepting that religion by a celebrity is a false trend setter.That is not sufficient reason to change the faith.

In the rural part of our country lots of (poor) people get converted for bread and biwi without so called visions. This is a very common thing. We are used to and immune to it.

Most of people go to local saints, pir etc for miracles. We respect them, prey to them, give donations to their mandir/masjid-dargah etc but we don't convert to that holy-man's religion.

God is omnipotent. God can be seen anywhere. God is follwong us, still thou is not servent of us. If sil(ly lady) had visited any villages of india she might have found the tale and experience of a god, saint etc(of any religions- we beleive all can do miracles in our harsh life and certainly it work for us !). In the south india even xtians have their own god making miracles.

So, miracle is not the key-reason to change the faith. Miracle is an external day to day trivial things. It clearly shows that you have been under developed spiritually. No body has told you truth.

Have you seen the god within you ? Then you will be out of all the religions, faith and all sort of morality and immoral things. Then you will be just and kind. You (yourself) will be a living religion. Then you will not follow anyperson/body, faith or so called moral ideals set by highly respected person/gods.

Fact is established religons are hiding the truths. They don't allow us to develope. Big reason is that inward journey is not that much comfortable. To safe guard their members, religions/faiths give us miracles to soften our wounded minds.

But soul remains thirsty.Are you going to visit yourself within you ! Try it. There will be more miracles without any conversion.

Some times i wake up and find myself asking "who am i ? "

I wake up from what ? dreams- sleeps - taughts - no dear, it is daytime experience.

When this questions starts, only priority to me is just go back to mundane world.

I refuse to answer this questions. I fear this questions. Who am I ?

I close my room and starts seeing pictures of nude womens, doing somethings, walk outside, i run away from myself and this question is not answered.

Kundalini

A week ago i was sitting with a friendly person. He was with some organization that taught yoga , kundalini practise. Now, i asked what you people were doing. Reply was they practice kundalini. A teacher speaks the words, actions and we do it accordingly. So, it is a controlled experiment if any. He also agreed that he had no kundalini jagaran ?

My experience is that without any guide you can not jump into the deep sea of kundalini. It has very strange experience. By the way. who is guide-a person who himself has kundalini jagaran.

Now, we came into the important question what is the test of kundalini jagaran ?

Actually there is no known test or test known to me.
From my experience i came to few points.
A turiya awastha starts suddenly. Where a person is not unconscious but...... for fraction of sections s/he plunges into the super conscious. There is blank. No feeling of time. No feeling of sex. No feeling of fear. You are just alone. A similar experience is sitting on highest mountain all alone. Where no one can reach to you.

When i come out of this state i am feeling freshness. I am finding myself very clean.

There is a side effect. If you are not physically strong, your bodily desires (sex) diminishes. You will dislike the touch of other persons.You will dislike being in the crowds. In the crowds you feeling loosing your cleanliness.

Don't expect ringing of bell in ears. Fire works around you. Imagination, or power to do something. kundalini is just not a tool or power. It is an experience, which makes you more comfortable within you and uncomfortable outside. It gives no extra power. Don't do it for power. It will transform yourself into the energy.

Hiding God

In the morning we wake up. Sunrises in the east. Some sort of worshipping starts. We remember our gods, goddess, guru, deities ,our good omen, good-(wo)man,god-(wo)man and then start our day.

In the middle of day we also pray. When travelling bow to road side shrines and other holy structures etc etc.

In the evening we also pray, some pray at the eating time & sleeping time also etc.

Our most of moments are filled with small prayers.As a human being we are praying a lot still there is lot of cruelty.

Most of individuals behaviours are animal like. Their eyes are filled with animal instinct, lies, sex,money etc. From where this cruelty came ? It came from nowhere. It was within us.

Our prayers has re-surfaced the cruelty. With prayers our mind are being cleared But in the mind we have negativity, fear as original instinct. We are hiding this original instinct in the name of being pious, religious, good-mannered etc.

There is evolution,we have progressed from flesh eating animals. we are now eating mind of peoples by air pollution, water pollutions, human-pollutions in the name of science, god , religions and humanity itself.

So, god is hiding. Be happy.

{ and ultimately who cares for god. God is duty bound to do good work for us. So, let us enjoy(carnivourous animal).}

mahakali

Some days ago i have written the post regarding "Maha-Kali" as wife/woman.

We are worshipping mahakali as mother and nothing else. But there is also one real minority thinking. Actually it is not thinking, it is taking the fire on a living body. Burning a body to accomodate her. Be it a man or female.

In this time of science we also give the invitation to be with us as wife/girl-friend but it is not possible for her or us to be in a human body.

It requires a lot of commitment on the body of female (who will become kali)and male ( who is inviting her). There are lot of problems. Technology is very simple and complex. Does kali wants you to do it? Answere is simple no. Those who wrote about her and broke the silence are failure. Including me. But from my failure let me share with you something-"don't break her silence".

You give invitation. She will return the message as okey. Invitation to the girl is given. Girl/woman is ready. Suddenly you find that the girl has got lots of money,become ill,got a old or new boy-friend. Her sexual life is becoming very active. Beware she will back-track. She back tracks. She got her rewards for not being kali. This is the way.

If girl is still willing. Then you will find yourself as becoming female. Ya, that is correct. Then you will experience that your support are becoming weak. You have to leave the process. When that process is left. You find yourself cursed. You are ready to die-leave this body. But, nodboy is letting you die. You are feeling from inside a woman like but find yourself(outerbody) a man. Your innerself is liquid.

There is no way out. It is just wait and watch -when she takes/claims your body. What about other bodies. Beware, don't say "i love you" to kali. Please , don't say this word.

Whatever the temptation don't do it. What was wrong. There is only one shiv. There can't be another shiv. So, beware, be as child. I salute the old sages of india who worshipped her as mother.

As a friend she will be very demanding. No child, no marriage, no money,no family, no nomadic life, lot of resources, lot of time and attention on only her. Even if succeeded in inviting her ,there is no consuption of marriage. You have to be a bachelore.A forced bachelore. Who can she her girl/woman becoming kali but can do nother except pujan.Your girl will be doing lot of pujans then she will wake up, you will find yorself sleeping, buddy it is not worth it. No-body will carry you.

Each word is my experience/i have seen /true.

shani shinganapur

Recently i visited shani-shinganapur.
Personally let me be frank, i have always detasted the shani maharaj without any reasons. I visited the temple and it was an eye opening for me. It crushed down all my mis-understandings.

You can visit temple of lord shani at shinganapur by bus, train or air.

Nearest place is Shirdi. From shirdi you can directly board private vehicle or get the state travel bus. ST bus also ply between shirdi and rahur. From Rahur get another bus for shinganapur.

Train :- You can alight at Nasik Road, from where you get frequent buses for shirdi. From shirdi you can go to Jyotirlinga Trabekshwar also. Manmad junction is also a nearby station. From there you can reach shirdi.Coper gaon is also nearby railway station (15 Km) from shirdi.
Shridi has enough infrastructure for all types of travels.

push & pull

In the engineering we were studying the push-pull amplifiers, basically for RF designs. In life there is also push-pull situations.

My friend yesterday told me do you want to know how your working was changed? He knows the name. I flatly said i am not interested in knowing that name.

We are working round the clock. Two persons were assigned workings on saturday / sunday. Theoratically I openly oppossed that you are assigning a woman to work on saturday and another is working for sunday. They should get reliefs/ rests.

Someone heard it. My friend initiated the motion and their duty was changed to normal times with saturday and sunday rests.

Problem now surfaced- that someone should do this saturday and sunday work ? Guess what? My kindness came back to me. Now my schedule is changed. I will do their work.

Before you speak up for some injustice or wrong please ensure that they are not even related remotely to you. Otherwise buck may stop at you.

how to heal a person

I was thinking about the healing issue of a persons spiritual health. We have inborn system of felling something is good or bad. We from the time immomerial know wehter it is good or not. When associating with other persons we know this person is helping me or not ?

One golden rule is, see what is his reputation. Are they in-famous for doing something ? Don't go for their good words or fine clothes. Do they have ego ! Some person can be wearing good cloths, reciting holybooks, showing good lineages but actually they are with rotten system which is creating hell.

Healing is done in two parts.1.Reduce dirt and 2.clean dirt.
Wisedom is don't stay where you being dirty. But due to work , home or other reasons we are in direct contact of a dirty mind who thinks nothing good towards us. His mind energy is against ourselves. Wow, here comes the krishna the healer. Instead of fighting that dirty mind expand yourself to some thing that is liked by everybody.

sanchi

Panch-mukhi Hanumanji, Mahakal

Few years ago i visited the Ujjain(MP). Near the Mahakal temple there is a "Mota-ganapati" temple, which belongs to direct decendant of Shree Sandipani Rushi, guru of lord krishna.

In this Mota-ganapati temple there is a little idol of Shri Hanumanji. This idol made from panch-dhatu is very special one. There is five mukh. 4 facing , four directions and fifth one facing upwards. Shri Hanumanji is mounted on flower which is over Kurma.

For years i was searching for the little idol, but could not find it.

Vir ganapati

Vir-Ganapati.

This is the Ganapati, i like the most because it has two hands.
In one hand there is a naked-sword. Another hand is 'varad-hasta'.
Lord is sitting on throne.

One little kid came to deliver the clothes to landlord. He suddenly saw the ganeshji and said, oh ganeshji touched the feet of lord. Kids face was smiling. I saw faith in his eyes. This faith and immediate submission to lord is the realization of god. Otherwise there is no way to reach there.

Rituals does not help the person. It is the innocense that is getting all the results.

General Class Travel

I was traveling general class recently due to day journey & short distance (of-course saving money). There was little quarrels for seats. General coach was overburdened. I managed to get berth on top-seat with two fellows. I was feeling high and lucky.

From my Himalayan peak, i heard.

Government should understand they are increasing sleeper / ac coaches but not the general coaches. Someone said lot of things against the government. I hear one strong voice. Have you ever complained to the ministry of railways, applied to the member of parliaments ? Answer was nil. For the sake of arguments another fellow lamented govt is doing nothing. But they had never complained to anybody.

Railway is a national builder & a positive organization which has developed , integrated technical improvements from time to time. The fact is that railway is the govt earnings. They think every service in terms of passenger revenue. But if applied to them for increasing general class bogey they might increase.

Anyone tried ? Not me.

yoni pushpa

Today i found the yoni pushpa. That was just lying in the ground. Lots of blue flowers were on cr bunch of creepers. What is significations ? It is mother goddess its own method of acceptance.

how to start fighting

I have a colleage (female) she says "good morning sir" in the morning. My experience is that she has decided to say bad words later or straitly fight with me or want to do some damage.

Then i just ignore her as far as possible. But she get a little chance upto the evenig she invariably fights. Why this ? This is just to gain sympathy & with each person you can not be nice. You have to throw your animals insticts and negativity to a chosen scape goat.

This is the method, observe the person very close. Then greet them, show respect and then fight mecylessly. But one fine day this warrior will be known.

My birthday

Today is my birth day.

For couples of years i was wondering why on this earth i am born. Atlast, now i know the meaning. I have taken birth not only for me, it is for other living things also.

My search is over. I was searching for the perfect woman. I found one with 90%, but she did not co-operated (due to her failure of realizing herself). Then i started searching the woman/man within me. In the end, I have found it. My each day is for my makers/builders, myself and nikhileshwar. Now i don't live just only for myself.

with lots of regards to me and other than me.

Someone who loved me most told me once, you will be on the top of the world. I hope my words will reflect that maturity.

Shree Ganeshji

Jai Ganesh.

This picture has been taken at the Jahangir Art Gallery, Colaba, Near Gateway of India.Mumbai.

Round the year various exhibition takes place. Whenever there is spare time I regularly visit the gallary. I asked the artist and he allowed me to photograph only this picture.

What i liked most in this picture of the great lord ganesha !
Lord Ganesha is very human. This is the way i can associate with him. Otherwise there is no way. This is the real ganesha.

Ganesha is the first person to know the lord shiv and shiva. Lord ganesha is the combination of both, still he is different from both.

Jai Ganesh.

meaning of life

We all know that the life is a circle. We are born. A little kid is welcome on the sphere of life. Then s/he is regularly pampared, fed , cared and it grows up. The knowledge of self come. S/he is assigned the gender role, name, and other sort of egos , caste, creed, social status and lot of things from near and dear and also assigned the fear.

If the baby is intelligent enough s/he will cope up with this test and devise its own survival strategy. But some are not so lucky. They just end up as the last man standing.

my country

When i was a little child(till day i am) there was a question roaming in my mind. Why are we investing lot of energy in our head part of country. I was seeing ho-halla of all political party. I grabbed my text book. To my delight my head was intact. In the map "all is well". My india was intact. This little child was laughing this idiot big political party wallas are backing their bread on non-issue.

For years, i never realized the truth of this ho-halla, because my text -books map was intact. I was growing up with this trusted intact map, then one day suddenly realization came to me - there is the real problem. Some one has lied to me or i was gullible little kid who accepted their un-truth. Problem is as real as it can be.

We have not seen it pragmatically. we have seen it in little parts. It is time that we see the problem as a whole. It is just not about politics. I am not deciding whether my thinking is childish or my great great child favourite time honoured so called nana's thinking was childish.

karna-pisachini

I have direct experience of a persons reading the mind in real time. How they do it ? Exact mechanism i don't know. But these things are being observed and classified for re-search purpoze.

God knows how it is done. But i have seen them working.
First phase:-
1. They look into your eyes. You are ignorant & don't know what s/he is doing. S/he will be talking to you. Directly gazing into your eyes. They will try their level best to keep looking into your eyes. They have habit of telling lies. They are in habit of telling stories. They will pose as a very religious and tolerating person which they are not.
Second phase:-
2. Now s/he will look into your face and concentrate.
3. Then they will chant-mantra in his/her mind and all your thought will be known to them.

You remember the person and they open up your mind. If you remember other persons they will also move onto their mind. It is like a virus.

For healing three things are important.

1. If identified run away from that person or remove him/her from your life.

2. Directly go to a person who has access to krishna's mantra (Very Ugra swaroop of krishna). It will heal you from inside. Don't succumb to his/her demands or egos. Remember they are as human as you. If they can affect your mind you can also effect his/her mind. Lord Krisnha is the ultimate answer.

3. The Chhinmasta is the devi that will kill his/her total pisach energy. But ordinary persons don't have access to it.

Remember you have entered into a grey area. Where no body is going to believe you. Pisacha sadhaka will tell your past which is unknown.
Let me tell you one thing with knife you can wound other persons, but healing takes time and lot of energy. But when you use gun knife has to surrender. In india some groups are using it as that is helping them in boosting their ego. It is passed from generation to generations. But one day their show is also cancelled.

Mahakali as wife

This is a very taboo subject. I could not write it. I don't have experience of it.

Sorry.

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Mahakali as a woman

I was seeing the pictures of the great great persons of India. Adi Guru Shri Shankar-acharya, Param Pujya Shri Vam-khepa devji, Param Kali Swaroop, kali putra Param-hansha Swami Ram krishna devji.

They have realized their female forms of goddess. Not to offend or to be rude to their holy-ness they have little large boobs. This has nothing to do with becoming femine or ladyboy like things.
It has deep spiritual meaning. Goddess has granted them their femine forms and to be with holy mother they have become like them. If you meditate on mothers female form you become femine. If you meditate on shiv you become like shiv. It is the simple mechanism, on what you are meditating-concentrating you become like that. Be advised !

Another thing is the 'gun'/merit of the idol/god you are concentrating. A male can become kali by taking merit of kali. We are always thinking that Mahakali as woman. It is possible that Mahakali can be manifested herself in the form of man.

Other things later on ... ... ...

queens statue

Guards huts.














Hut shown is a guards hut.
This is the statue of Queen of England installed at Bangalore.
There is an interesting story associated.
A permanent guard was commissioned to take care of Her Majesty's Statue during british rule.
Increadible ! But true.

mahakali

a family

Now see the news yourself. It is in hindi language.
No comments from myself take it as it is.

lifespan

I will write it later.

Let there be light and there was light. Budha said appo deepo bhav. Shivo-aham, Shivo-aham. For years this things are surrounding me like a satellite on elliptical orbit. We are knowing that this is the truth that "there is a satellite on orbit". But, when the ground reality is taken into the considerations the satellite becomes a very remote reality.

On this planet earth we are living in dust, pebbles, water, mud and all of things. Cleanliness is an alien entity. Naturally we are not clean & clear. We got to understand our system. That this country has very ups and downs simultaneously. In one field we have reached in top. And some fields we are near the bottom.

We have to understand that .....

20 m

I have seen people talking and talking. When jist is taken there is nothing special about it.

Being minority

This is minority report. I have no political connections or views. I am not centre, left or right. I don't have any political beliefs. I cast vote. I participate in all community works. But i don't participate in any religious processions.

I feel let down. Imagine the time when i find a girl / woman who is suitable to me and i am with un-suitable woman. I want to get married and get divorce. What is my options. ? As a hindu i have a very meagre chance to have a faithful / safe / satisfying physical relationships legally. But being a good fearing person i want it legally. Inquiries were made with my lawyer friends.- Explain legal positions. Answer to me was very negative one. Illegally you can do anything. Oh, we have double standard.

For a Hindu Educated Man has to wait atleast 28-30 years, woman has to wait for 25-35 years to get married. We pass our biological productive period. I look down to the life of my muslim friends. They almost all got married before 22-24 and girls around me were married even at 15-17 age. Same is the case with my cousins who are living in the remote villages of india, uneducated, not employed with govt-self employed, almost all were married before the age of 25. City dwellers were like me.

There is nothing special about physical relationships or nothing hidden. But healthy marriage is the building block of society. If we want to grow a balanced progressive society we have let people marry at the age of 21.

Problem is with divorce process and mentality of legal system. We all knows that, now a days from a family to family situations are so much changed that a common stereotype can not be put on them.

Now we are not tolerating a woman bunking the line at ticket windows of railways. All males shout loudly that oh woman you also stand with all wo/man in line.

We have to rethink our mindset otherwise i see a situation were hindus like me will be s minority one fine day.

My all best friends are not from cast hindus. I was once living in the western part of India. One fine day due to some circumstance i have to leave my city and my house . My shares of house became vacant. We had to sell it to a minority. One by one they encroached almost all buildings. We are a marshal family , still we had to sell. We have not even got the material cost of building. I am not talking about the land-cost. I felt like an invasion and deeply hurt. Now where i live they also sold one portion to. I now have to tolerate the nuisance of meat-eating.

A group consisting 35 % of population can not claim to be minority anymore. We have to redefine ourselves. It is right time. What is democracy ! peoples elected by peoples - rule the people. If a group is living in a pocket and their representative can win elections and go to parliament and without any bloodshed a single aimed group can change rules if they have sufficient number in house.

Now it needs lot of thinking, remember George Orwell's 1984.

changes in life

Yesterday eveneing i was thinking that i did right to enhace something or help the peoples in their woes ?

I am constantly thinking and re-thinking on this subject. This is a very deep and controversial subject.

Few years ago i was working with a very siddha-lineage person. They are gruhasta sadhu. They have home-temple. My senior boss is running law firm. His reputation is that, he wins almost 90 % cases he undertooks. He really loves me. He is gentle, pious and helping nature. In a healthy talk there was a point "why should we help. That person collapsed due to his karma. What is his karma ? Do you know it." His look was a sympathetic one, that i will know the fact of life one day.

At that time i did not like the karma principle. Even today i don't like he karma-principle still there is one thing now i am strongly beliving is that peoples are not that much good & clean. In fact people were never good. People don't return or keep the goodness going on. This is the main cause of a good person becoming non-interfering one. He or she isolates from the society.

There is famous story of Akabar-Birbal. To prove his point birbal requested akabar to order people to put only one glass of water into the empty royal pond in the night. In the blackness of night people came with a filled glass. In the morning akabar show the pond. There was no milk in it. All people had thought that others are putting milk so it will make no difference wether i put milk or not.

This is the same mentality of people that don't let community work going on. I am not atlas. Atlas takes the load itself.

Girl as friend

I have a girl as my friend since 10 years. 16 years ago, one fine day i saw lot of beautiful woman surrounding me. I was in the lagna-mandap. We have fotographs of this event. Later on fotograph a thin, blue tanjowaram sadi a black woman with glim face was sitting lonely. I did not know her. I did not ask for her reference.

After 5 years suddenly my wife announced that i have sister-in-law. She is going to visit me. I did not quite remember her. This was the first meeting. My wife said sit with her. I was little reluctant. But, i talked with her and there was something in her eyes that attracted. I asked her how many childrens you have ? She laughingly told me ye sab to mere hi hai.

That was starting point of our friendship. We talked, exchanged and there was lot of fightings also. But, our relationships remained a very healthy one. One day we were sitting. She was complaining no body is marrying her. So i jokingly said "you marry me". Suddenly there was laughters. We remember this thing for long time.

Now a days she has become officer in police. We meet as a gentle-man. Now she knows a lot of manners due to her training at police school. She even speaks english.

We talk after a gap of 1-2 years. She once remarked you are living in the place of OSHO. She has become osho's sanyasini. Her new name is ....... . I know she is good. She was advised to do dhyan of osho.

A virtue

Today half an hour ago i said someone that "she is very virtuous woman." Yes, yes, my friend replied indeed "she is very happy person today". I know how honest, pious she is. One time she was offering one night stand to each and everybody who came within her reach. As usually she offerred me also, but i rejected. I had my own reasons. That day onwards she was conspiring on me silently.

She was married at age of 17 years to an old man as second wife. He was twice her age. It is a rumour that old man's first wife was killed (by him in her pregnancy). But, officially there is no such record. At the age of 17 years she had affairs. That was about 1979-80. From the culture she came it was very forward move to have affairs with lot of peoples. She is beautiful.

Her dauthters are also beautiful. By chance due to family relationships i had to tolerate her in my life. If given a chance i would have thrown her out from my life. I have observed that all the good works in her life has been made by me. I got her son married to the girl he liked. I got another girl passed out the college exams. I even had helped the husband of his daughter in passing out the exams in college. I was invigilator. I have made recommendations for them.

Due to me another girl got healing from a place which was very costly. Now, second dauther is also living with her sister's home. Offering one night stands.

I am seeing that they are behaving according to kaliyug. They are as rotten as a cinema idol.

Their integrety is very doubt ful according to me. But i see myself as a responsible. I feel guilty. I should not have helped them ? I should not have hoped that they will transform and change the ways.They are rotten shit and they will remain so. Atleast i should have stayed away from them. I regret helping them.

I feel deeply hurt. Reason is when i know them very well , i should not have helped them. Atleast i should have kept myself away from them.

The Truth

What is the truth.

I told some-one that" --------- you said is not correct". He did not like my words and then me. I have helped him in many ways. That is it. I was feeling that he is not liking me anymore.

Only one statement from started a debate- "This is the true thing yar". And he did not accept it. Gave me reasons against it and so on and on. This is how people behave. But, i was wondering that he will see the light of truth. Nay ! who wants truth. Truth need not to be sweet. Actually we don't want truth.

For truth i lost a friend. But it was okey for me as in future for a big thing he might not stand with me for truth. That will be the time i need the friends. This is the test of truth.

shri yanta

Shree-yantra is a very rahasyamayee yantra. There are lot of variations like , bhuprustha, kachhappa, merupristha etc.

General rule is that shree-yantra should be a big one on precious metal, precious stones,etc. I have seen the shri-yantra change the colour, produce good aroma and giving results.

I have been in touch with a person ( now his body is not with us) who used to do just little pujan , some-mudra and presto the results were there. I have got benefit from him. He was a very kind and pious guru. His working was very strange, in a small room he sit and did all the pujan. Then, we talked on all subjects. There were few persons when i go to their home. Actually he allowed me to touch his shri-yantra and we did pujan. As for knowledge he had very little knowledge of tantra. What he actually did was working. He worked at the ripe age of may be 70. When i met him he was very old person. But see me his eyes become bright. He was a gem. Very few person have that much lineage. He had a good spiritual lineage. His followers were few, actually he was guru, but disguised as palmist, joytishacharya. He did not establish any temple, his guru-bhai did make a big temple and all sort of things, (A big famous temple of nadiad).

His most of benefectors live in USA,UK and other foreign countries. I have seen lot of marriages taking places due his interventions which was not possible in normal circumstances and they all are happy.

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Kundalini Milan

Today i was wondering about the kundalini. I usually match the kundalini for my friends for their wards marriage free of charge on my computer. But i don't know how to interprete kundalini.

Is this kundalini real one, does the gruh (planets) affect our life. I don't know. It is observed that most of people see the kundalini at time of marriage. We match the man's and woman's kundalini. When all the factors (or most of factors )match we fix the marriage. After marriage they become like a standard rotten ones.My wife don't have kundalini. So, ours did not match.

During this process one day a thought came to my mind. Why this kundalini matching is needed and how many kundalini matches with mine. So, secretely i started matching all the woman's kundalini which i can find and started studying without any mischievious intentions.

My kundalini matched with 2 womans. But they are my sisters(?).

One is my colleages daughter and other is my sister-in-law. Computer predicted that for first case it was not advisable because we have age difference. Ya, our age difference is so much that she could have been my own dauther, if i had married at 18 yrs age .

Result for other person that is my sister-in-law was interesting. Computer said to me that she is exact fit for me and will make my happy. Then one fine day i told my sister-in-law that you should marry me. Why she asked. I told computer kundalini matching. She very laughingly said that " Jijaji i have a boy friend and have excellent realationships for past 10 years (!). "

I don't know whether this kundalini is true or not. I am still wondering at this kundalini business. So, for me this milan is bogus. For the beleiver if any one comes to me for matching i will do it free of charge on my computer.

Temples of Narmada

Yesterday i was wandering over the river bank Narmada. Generally we remember the narmada in jabalpur as Bhedaghat & 64 Yogini Mandir. If you have time and passion you can explore the river side which is overlooked and not in popular tourist circuits. There is still flavour of village and old Narmada culture ( sanskriti). Lot of sages have done parikrama of Narmada.

In the river banks towns / village still today you can find people begging and getting the foods. Actually lots of them are healthy / wealthy and doing religious parikrama.

spiritual spouse

When i was not born, i told my partner ( a woman ) that we shall go to earth. Okey,We will go to earth. We chose gujarat. It is very beautiful country with mountains, deserts, jungle, plains,sea-shore and spiritual lineage. Good tempered peoples. Mt. Girnar was chosen as a place to be born.

Now, she said to me that i am coming- you go, there is little chores to do. Hurry up, i am coming. I said yar, please come with me, i am feeling lonely without you. She assured me that, she will surely come. She jokingly said to me, "In the earth you will find me as beautiful lady, younger than you". Ah, she is infact true to her words. She is 10-12 years younger than me, beautiful. There is problem , She is very near and dear to me but, she chose not to live with me.

She is not giving due weightage to our bonds ! Was i wrong ? Or she has changed due to atmoshphere of earth. Tasted a flavours of earth and planning to stay here. Now, i am packing and going back to my place. I hope she will come back to our eternal abode. I don't remember that she told me that she will accompany me in return journey.

31.05.2010

My belowed Tara

When i was child i had seen the goddess tara on cave paintings of Ajanta and Illora. Suddently a voice or thought came to my mind that i should marry her. I was in age of innosance ( say 14 to 15 years) boy and naturally not able to know this marriage things in real sense. Ha, i know that two persons male female marry in a big big ceremony.

I was just surprized why this thing came to my mind. For some time i was searching tara to marry i did not know that she is not a human being. I thoughtl she lived somewhere. I was innocent & lazy child so search did not took off properly but there was always a little stingy thoughts running to find her.


But frankly i did not try to find her or try to marry her. Today when i was seeing images on my computer it came to my mind that instead of searching beautiful ladies or perfect ladies or other ladies / womans i should have searched her. I should have put all my efforts to find her. It is anotherthing that as a mortal man you can not marry goddess.

When you are in deep love with person of opposite sex you both become one. If, relationship/binding of bhakta and bhagwan is stronger , then suddenly they can become one.

In deep love with tara you can be tara your self. When you become her, then how you can marry her or think of any worldy lusts. Truth is that in the spiritual union there is no two. You both are one. This higher mathematics is beyound our imaginations. Can you imagine tara without the shiv she is standing on ? Now i don't have thought running in my mind to marry her.

When you become light , a Shining star (i.e. tara herself ) she puts you on her head. She collects you as her own gem. listening to me ........ I regret that i did not search her properly when i was young and alone ......... Are you ... ... ...

Second Spouse a DODO's dream.

This is a very stinking subject. People refrained from writing but there is a need to write. Now a days i am seeing lot of peoples resorting to keeping boyfriend and girlfriend.Whether it is moral or immoral, legal or illegal i dont want to dwelve into it.

For me, one thing, i am constantly thinking is that>>>Are they unsatisfied with their parter ? Do their partners are not healthy, happy , supportive ? Do they actually require some more satisfactions,.........

But what i see is that, their first partners are okey. The man {who is keeping second spouce } wife is okey, supportive. First wife is tolerating other woman in life of her husband. Female of this second relations-ship {second wife ) is usually not married, very hungry, or she broke her marriage or she does not have hope for merriage due to various reasons.

We all see lot of persons roaming in a couples but they are not legally married. They are students, co-worker, working in same business etc. This pehenomena has engulfed whole society be it IAS or a labourer. Their desires they know ! but on the face they are content and happy in what they are doing ?

Law is biased and in practcle un-effective. I also see that office persons, relatives etc are tolerating and not objecting anything. We are not painting anyone bad. But when getting married we want a virgin girl ?

Now our double standard comes to light. It is observed that a persons married life is only 5 years. In five years s/he gets all highs if they are lucky. Then social responsibilities start. This unsastisfaction is cause of illicite relationships. We should change our mind set.

Say if we start marriage at 20 years for female and 23-25 years for male we might have 10 years healthy & productive time for couples satisfaction whitin marriage. We should reduce legally age of marriage and not opt for careers or manage , build carrers from spouses place. When we don't have the ideal man or woman, still foolling around the age old norms and laws.

We should accept that we are not able to heal the root problem. Our patches in various forms are artificial. Now, Do we join them ?Actully i don't know............. Actually we are changing. A virgin and pious persons are very rare to find and in on way to extinctions. I am also one step behind DODO. ( "dodo" a bird recently vanished from earth due to over exploitations).

Ark of life.

We are expecting the result in a first chance. Is it so ? No Sir, a big no.

Before something is materialized, you have to think about it throughly. Predict the probable behaviour.
After one year, two year what will become of the thing................ (you are longing and willing to die for !)
You have to understand that you are interacting with a girl, a boy, a pet, a living organization or anything that shows the characteristics of life ( a super-computer,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ).

I was puzzled as a child, in the first instance how the Computer starts (because it is non living thing). After lot of years, it clicked to me that, there is always a chip and clock with a bettery running in computer. And you have to apply power to rejuvianate other boards and then you can use the computer. Seeing the working system was not a problem.

Like this we are stuck at little points {at a time } to understand that things. Every pujan, living organization has a bettery and clock chip running. That is keeping it up and living. Running power is differrent thing.

Someone has established something. That is the non-living thing. It can not survive without maintenance. So it needs to be maintained daily. And maintenance requires lot of living energy.

That is the problem.

64 YOGINI

Shri Ganeshji is the first, middle and last.
In the starting, i invoke ganesh. O omnipotent god be with me.
It is a important that pujan of Shri Ganeshji is done before doing any yogini pujan.
This ganeshji belongs to 64 Yogini temple of Bheraghat, Jabalpur (M.P.).

Last day i had medical check-up. They tested me for urine-sugar,physical fitness, weight,blood pressure, blood etc.

Doctor said to me i am healthy. My dieticians said to me do you drink ? No, sir. Never. Then she was puzzled. I told her that i could not wake up in the morning. Why ? She was very very worried. Told to me that i should do following exercise.

* Wash your feets before sleeping.

* Drink plenty of water, but in small dosases.Body will be able to soak the water.

* When awake, just sit up and don't be in the bad. Move your left part of body, there is heart, so blood circulation is high.

* Pillow should be small, i had a high and tight pillow.

* Before sleeping, put your leg in the air. Upside down, so blood reaches the brain.

This last two things helped me immencely in reducing fatigue.........

New People

My friend said if you get help from someone. First time the person will help you. Next time s/he will help you. But,now onwards finding help from the person is not sure.

It is natural. One time, two time, three time but after that it may be not possible. We have finite resources. Our time in this earth is very limited. Say 70 to 80 years. In this productive time is say 20 years to 45 years. Between this we have to create everthing for ourselves, family , friends, foes etc.

Ma sharda

Thou is shining in the sky.
I am so much amazed i can't think anything else.
O mother , let me gather your light.
Your light is more sweet than honey.
We are puzzled how all this happenned.
If you were not present we might feel that it was a dream.

People's behaviours.

Someone said to me once.

1. If a person helps you he or she is always going to help you normally.
In some situations s/he might not help you.

2. If someone is not helping you s/he or it may never going to help you.

I have tested this little rule time and time again and it has come true.

I have also found this little things.

There is some general form of courtesy. In this situations you will feel like being helped. But when tested they surely melts away.

Some persons are very helping in nature. They help everyone in normal situations.

Very rarely a person always help you. If you find this type of person stick with them (him/her/it) and try to repay.

Some persons are very negative they never help.Some persons always try to oppose you. Some persons always oppose you but help other persons.
What is the root of this problem ?????

I am just wondering...............

Flowers glows like a smiling bright sun without heat.

Morpankh is a wonder in itself.It shows the veiwer different color from the viewpoint they are looking into it.

Life is also this way.It has immense potential of showing different colours. I usually keep morpankh hanging on the wall. When there is silence and light breeze coming from windows, you can really hear the sound due air toching the morpankh. It shows the presence of krishna, a great lover, beautiful person who had immence potential. Pankh-dhari.

I get mor-pankh from thick-bush, left by the bird itself. Please don't purchase it from wendors. By not supporting these wendors you increase the life-span of bird.

I generally visit the Hanuman Temples.

Once i visited in night time the BaglaMukhi Temple, Civic Centre, Jabalpur (MP). Shri Hanumanji is under the bel-tree facing north. In darkness it looked very beautiful. This temple is very new and belongs to H.H.Shankracharyajee of Dwarika.

new beginning

There was lot of thinking going on whether anything should be written or not. Words have its own life. Sometimes words outlives the writer. But who is going to read this ? I am not a celebrity, nor am i" who's who person".

But there was deep feeling within that something should be shared with world. I will be sharing my experience as Honarary Animal Welfare Officer, Nature Trainure, Radio Amateur ( VU3INJ). and lot more......

You are free to comment, i don't intend to offend anyone. Sometimes i also don't agree with my own writings (!) but you know they outlive and outsmart the authors.

12.04.2010