Today is dipawali. Day before was 14th of black moon. Today is dark-moon. Day before we have done all sort of black magic and our make beleive things. I don't subsribe to it. I believe in the goodness of god.
when i compare myself with others who are doing prayers i call myself failures. But when i close my eyes, remember the god or open my eyes i see the beauty. I see the good ness of people. I am not optimistics but still see the good ness around me and say to my lord. I know you. And lord smiles to me like saying i love you my boy.
But when i measure my benefit of making friendship with the lord it is not visible to me except true and un-conditional love.
Even from small darshan, words peoples have made temples but mylord does not allow me to pray there or visit them. My lord krishana said to arjun whatever others do i am with you. So, lord i beleive you.
Your touch is my proof. Your smell is my confidence. I know nothing of magic but my dear lord i know i love you. O my great lord be my girl-friend like you have become arjun's chariotman.
Before i leave this body lets sleep togather. Be my girl-friend before i become your girl. I could not wait for more. Speed up or if you will come late- find myself as your girl. I love you.
