Tuesday, July 6, 2010

A virtue

Today half an hour ago i said someone that "she is very virtuous woman." Yes, yes, my friend replied indeed "she is very happy person today". I know how honest, pious she is. One time she was offering one night stand to each and everybody who came within her reach. As usually she offerred me also, but i rejected. I had my own reasons. That day onwards she was conspiring on me silently.

She was married at age of 17 years to an old man as second wife. He was twice her age. It is a rumour that old man's first wife was killed (by him in her pregnancy). But, officially there is no such record. At the age of 17 years she had affairs. That was about 1979-80. From the culture she came it was very forward move to have affairs with lot of peoples. She is beautiful.

Her dauthters are also beautiful. By chance due to family relationships i had to tolerate her in my life. If given a chance i would have thrown her out from my life. I have observed that all the good works in her life has been made by me. I got her son married to the girl he liked. I got another girl passed out the college exams. I even had helped the husband of his daughter in passing out the exams in college. I was invigilator. I have made recommendations for them.

Due to me another girl got healing from a place which was very costly. Now, second dauther is also living with her sister's home. Offering one night stands.

I am seeing that they are behaving according to kaliyug. They are as rotten as a cinema idol.

Their integrety is very doubt ful according to me. But i see myself as a responsible. I feel guilty. I should not have helped them ? I should not have hoped that they will transform and change the ways.They are rotten shit and they will remain so. Atleast i should have stayed away from them. I regret helping them.

I feel deeply hurt. Reason is when i know them very well , i should not have helped them. Atleast i should have kept myself away from them.