changes in life

Yesterday eveneing i was thinking that i did right to enhace something or help the peoples in their woes ?

I am constantly thinking and re-thinking on this subject. This is a very deep and controversial subject.

Few years ago i was working with a very siddha-lineage person. They are gruhasta sadhu. They have home-temple. My senior boss is running law firm. His reputation is that, he wins almost 90 % cases he undertooks. He really loves me. He is gentle, pious and helping nature. In a healthy talk there was a point "why should we help. That person collapsed due to his karma. What is his karma ? Do you know it." His look was a sympathetic one, that i will know the fact of life one day.

At that time i did not like the karma principle. Even today i don't like he karma-principle still there is one thing now i am strongly beliving is that peoples are not that much good & clean. In fact people were never good. People don't return or keep the goodness going on. This is the main cause of a good person becoming non-interfering one. He or she isolates from the society.

There is famous story of Akabar-Birbal. To prove his point birbal requested akabar to order people to put only one glass of water into the empty royal pond in the night. In the blackness of night people came with a filled glass. In the morning akabar show the pond. There was no milk in it. All people had thought that others are putting milk so it will make no difference wether i put milk or not.

This is the same mentality of people that don't let community work going on. I am not atlas. Atlas takes the load itself.

Girl as friend

I have a girl as my friend since 10 years. 16 years ago, one fine day i saw lot of beautiful woman surrounding me. I was in the lagna-mandap. We have fotographs of this event. Later on fotograph a thin, blue tanjowaram sadi a black woman with glim face was sitting lonely. I did not know her. I did not ask for her reference.

After 5 years suddenly my wife announced that i have sister-in-law. She is going to visit me. I did not quite remember her. This was the first meeting. My wife said sit with her. I was little reluctant. But, i talked with her and there was something in her eyes that attracted. I asked her how many childrens you have ? She laughingly told me ye sab to mere hi hai.

That was starting point of our friendship. We talked, exchanged and there was lot of fightings also. But, our relationships remained a very healthy one. One day we were sitting. She was complaining no body is marrying her. So i jokingly said "you marry me". Suddenly there was laughters. We remember this thing for long time.

Now a days she has become officer in police. We meet as a gentle-man. Now she knows a lot of manners due to her training at police school. She even speaks english.

We talk after a gap of 1-2 years. She once remarked you are living in the place of OSHO. She has become osho's sanyasini. Her new name is ....... . I know she is good. She was advised to do dhyan of osho.

A virtue

Today half an hour ago i said someone that "she is very virtuous woman." Yes, yes, my friend replied indeed "she is very happy person today". I know how honest, pious she is. One time she was offering one night stand to each and everybody who came within her reach. As usually she offerred me also, but i rejected. I had my own reasons. That day onwards she was conspiring on me silently.

She was married at age of 17 years to an old man as second wife. He was twice her age. It is a rumour that old man's first wife was killed (by him in her pregnancy). But, officially there is no such record. At the age of 17 years she had affairs. That was about 1979-80. From the culture she came it was very forward move to have affairs with lot of peoples. She is beautiful.

Her dauthters are also beautiful. By chance due to family relationships i had to tolerate her in my life. If given a chance i would have thrown her out from my life. I have observed that all the good works in her life has been made by me. I got her son married to the girl he liked. I got another girl passed out the college exams. I even had helped the husband of his daughter in passing out the exams in college. I was invigilator. I have made recommendations for them.

Due to me another girl got healing from a place which was very costly. Now, second dauther is also living with her sister's home. Offering one night stands.

I am seeing that they are behaving according to kaliyug. They are as rotten as a cinema idol.

Their integrety is very doubt ful according to me. But i see myself as a responsible. I feel guilty. I should not have helped them ? I should not have hoped that they will transform and change the ways.They are rotten shit and they will remain so. Atleast i should have stayed away from them. I regret helping them.

I feel deeply hurt. Reason is when i know them very well , i should not have helped them. Atleast i should have kept myself away from them.

The Truth

What is the truth.

I told some-one that" --------- you said is not correct". He did not like my words and then me. I have helped him in many ways. That is it. I was feeling that he is not liking me anymore.

Only one statement from started a debate- "This is the true thing yar". And he did not accept it. Gave me reasons against it and so on and on. This is how people behave. But, i was wondering that he will see the light of truth. Nay ! who wants truth. Truth need not to be sweet. Actually we don't want truth.

For truth i lost a friend. But it was okey for me as in future for a big thing he might not stand with me for truth. That will be the time i need the friends. This is the test of truth.

shri yanta

Shree-yantra is a very rahasyamayee yantra. There are lot of variations like , bhuprustha, kachhappa, merupristha etc.

General rule is that shree-yantra should be a big one on precious metal, precious stones,etc. I have seen the shri-yantra change the colour, produce good aroma and giving results.

I have been in touch with a person ( now his body is not with us) who used to do just little pujan , some-mudra and presto the results were there. I have got benefit from him. He was a very kind and pious guru. His working was very strange, in a small room he sit and did all the pujan. Then, we talked on all subjects. There were few persons when i go to their home. Actually he allowed me to touch his shri-yantra and we did pujan. As for knowledge he had very little knowledge of tantra. What he actually did was working. He worked at the ripe age of may be 70. When i met him he was very old person. But see me his eyes become bright. He was a gem. Very few person have that much lineage. He had a good spiritual lineage. His followers were few, actually he was guru, but disguised as palmist, joytishacharya. He did not establish any temple, his guru-bhai did make a big temple and all sort of things, (A big famous temple of nadiad).

His most of benefectors live in USA,UK and other foreign countries. I have seen lot of marriages taking places due his interventions which was not possible in normal circumstances and they all are happy.

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Kundalini Milan

Today i was wondering about the kundalini. I usually match the kundalini for my friends for their wards marriage free of charge on my computer. But i don't know how to interprete kundalini.

Is this kundalini real one, does the gruh (planets) affect our life. I don't know. It is observed that most of people see the kundalini at time of marriage. We match the man's and woman's kundalini. When all the factors (or most of factors )match we fix the marriage. After marriage they become like a standard rotten ones.My wife don't have kundalini. So, ours did not match.

During this process one day a thought came to my mind. Why this kundalini matching is needed and how many kundalini matches with mine. So, secretely i started matching all the woman's kundalini which i can find and started studying without any mischievious intentions.

My kundalini matched with 2 womans. But they are my sisters(?).

One is my colleages daughter and other is my sister-in-law. Computer predicted that for first case it was not advisable because we have age difference. Ya, our age difference is so much that she could have been my own dauther, if i had married at 18 yrs age .

Result for other person that is my sister-in-law was interesting. Computer said to me that she is exact fit for me and will make my happy. Then one fine day i told my sister-in-law that you should marry me. Why she asked. I told computer kundalini matching. She very laughingly said that " Jijaji i have a boy friend and have excellent realationships for past 10 years (!). "

I don't know whether this kundalini is true or not. I am still wondering at this kundalini business. So, for me this milan is bogus. For the beleiver if any one comes to me for matching i will do it free of charge on my computer.

Temples of Narmada

Yesterday i was wandering over the river bank Narmada. Generally we remember the narmada in jabalpur as Bhedaghat & 64 Yogini Mandir. If you have time and passion you can explore the river side which is overlooked and not in popular tourist circuits. There is still flavour of village and old Narmada culture ( sanskriti). Lot of sages have done parikrama of Narmada.

In the river banks towns / village still today you can find people begging and getting the foods. Actually lots of them are healthy / wealthy and doing religious parikrama.